All The Things She Said…

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Journaling is how I process my life. From my perspective, every word is completely true. Memories are never completely true. This should all be taken with a few grains of salt, and maybe a bit of tequila, too.

by Crystal Torres January 23, 2023August 20, 2023

This is my personal blog. It’s like keeping a diary, but on the internet.

Not a Lobster

I believe that every couple should have a go-to fight, something to bicker about that doesn’t really matter to either party. It lets you get the feisty out without hurting feelings. Ours was my grandmother’s copper lobster mold.

Such Pretty Red Flags

He did me wrong, but I did me wrong, too. I braided his red flags into my hair like ribbons, wore them with the same pride I had worn his jacket, because they were his, and I believed he was mine.

Curses & Cures

I will always curse the relationship that she actively weaponized against me. His infidelity is a rot festering in the roots of their foul union.

Psychotic Little Drama Gremlin

I know there can be no peace for him while this psychotic little drama gremlin is in his life. It is a little unfair, though, that it doesn’t seem like I’ll have any peace until she’s out of his life either.

I’ve Lost a Friend

It finally clicked for me. I was fighting so hard to stay friends with this person who I didn’t even like. I’ve seen behind his mask and I am not impressed.

A Woman Scorned

I couldn’t swallow any more anger down. I tried. I still needed my friend, but I also needed some space between myself and the ongoing pain having him in my life caused. When I finally took a step back it was like stepping off a landmine. Kaboom.

Boundary Issues

Late night texts after the break up hit very differently. I had to deal with him texting, “I miss you,” as he built something with someone else.

The Fatal Blow

I had to process the breakup and the new girl all at once. I was still licking my wounds, too raw to talk to anyone about my loss, when I got a text from my daughter asking about his girlfriend

So What Happens Now?

I will miss what was and what almost was. It felt like we were really great together. I’ll find new things to look forward to, though.

Saudade Summer

I could not separate my memories of Portugal from the pain of this betrayal. It made it difficult to take my travel blog notes and make them anything other than a scream.

Miles From Nowhere

“If you get on the wrong train, get off at the nearest station. The longer it takes you to get off, the more expensive the return trip will be.” Breakups let you off at that nearest station. I still didn’t know where I was going, but at least I wasn’t on the wrong train anymore.

The Last Night

I nodded off. I woke up. He rolled over and put his arm around me.

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Crystal Torres would like to be writer. She’s also a mom, a recent BA recipient, admin staff, an earth builder, a permaculturist, a rainwater harvester, a roller derby enthusiast, a child of renaissance faires and science fiction cons, a volunteer, a fiber artist, a hiker, a camper, an off-key karaoke singer, and will dance to anything. She’s down for an adventure, no matter how big or how small.